Kerosene - Rogue - She Cat

[frostbite]

name: Kerosene

gender: Female

age: 18 moons

rank: None

clan: rouge

quick description: Long haired black she cat with a white chest and paw with blue eyes

Description: So you want to know what makes me.. well me? Take one look at me. My black fur covers my whole body. Yes great for cold weather but its a pain in the butt in summer time. On my front left paw you have a pure white color. Following that white you get my chest and belly. Look into my eyes and you will see a beautiful deep blue. I am a medium sized cat and just because I have all of this fur on my body doesnt make me fat. I am actually very skinny under all of this fur. My legs are a good length for me and help me run and jump when needed. My fluffy tail is great for a pillow to lie on at night or even just for a nap.

Personality: Who am I you ask? Well where should I begin? I'm done playing games now. I'm sick of all it all. Being little miss nice pants and helping everyone out. Being their for you when your hurt, I hate it. Hated doing it all. You never cared about me, why should I care about you? You gave me everything I wanted and now I turned my back on you. Feels nice doesnt it? I can back stab you so fast you wont know what hit you.

I walk a road of my own. Who the hell do I need to tell me what to do? All I hear is comands in my head about what I should do and how to do things, I dont need you talking it all up in my space. I wont listen. I dont listen to anyone. I'm the side you wish you you never saw. Yet it gets better, I'm the side we all have and all let out at times, but never like me.

Other cats I could care less about. Its only me im my world. Why do I need anyone to help me or to care for me? Its stupid. Its pathedic. Its childish. Its you. I live by my own rules, I dont follow anything else. I play along as I go. Always have been like that.

Love. Stupid? Lost? Wanted? Well, what ever it is, I will admit I want it. I get everything I want and I get it all my way. I want to feel you close against me and I wanna hear you whisper in my ear, but do I get that now? No. Of course not. Your immature. You dont know what I want. Guess what, you'll get addicted to me in some way..but my decision if I want you. You say you do but you dont know me. You never will know who I really am. Stop playing games, I can play games, bu you play them all wrong. You bend the rules and break them. I live the rules and make them. What are you living for?

Dont get in my way. I'll kill you. Set me off, I dont think twice about stopping. I will tear you apart limb from limb till I can see every bone in your body on the ground. I dont stop. Once I get going, I will never stop. Why stop when your having fun? Their are no rules to killing someone now is their? Not in my life.

Now the question is, you have what it takes to even wanna say one word to me?


History: Whats under my fur is whats hard to talk about. Dont even tear up. If you do, your weak and useless. I hate it when you cry. Be strong. But do I care?
I was only about 10 moons and my father got be pregnant.. My mother always came home and didnt do anything about it. Stupid females dont give a crap about what goes on. He tells me "You look alone. Come here. I'll make it all better."

I did as he said. I feel his warm body on top of mine and I hear him whisper in my ear, "You look tense. Let me help you relax sweetheart, I'll make you feel better."
I go numb. Everything he did to me I didnt feel a thing. My mother always came home from god who knows where and just looked at me in my eyes and then soon left. Leaving me and my father alone.

Moons passed I'm a mother. Big woop. With in those days of me carrying around children in my stomach, my father beats me. My mother left us. My dad and I. Why didn't I leave? Because I gave him what he wants and he never wanted it to go. The cuts he gave me, the bruses he left, all told a story. Yet the only thing he beat me for, was because I have kids. He told me it was all my fault. Still I stood there and took everything. Every time he saw a tear fall from my eye he would give me another hard night, and not just beating me. I took it all. The beating, the cuts, everything. Hard nights. You name it. I stayed. He wanted me to stay. Remember, he is my father.

I'm 13 moons and I have three children. One boy two girls. My father killed the girls. He hated girls. Never had a heart for them. Even better? I sat and watched him kill them. They were only 2 moons old. only 2. They did nothing wrong and my father killed them. Why didnt he kill me then? He was a different cat then. He actually loved my mother, but then things change. Sad I know. Get over it. Cry me a River. Shut up. I dont need your tears. They do nothing for you or me. Suck it up.
As I was saying, he left my little son alive. But then, gave him to another family. I dont know where he is, do I care? Not anymore. Not my problem. Never was.

I'm 18 moons, and my father died getting hit by a car. Yes a car. I know what that is. I'm not stupid. Shocking I know, screw you. I came to this forest then. To get on my own. Yeah, my father died. Do I care? I couldnt ask for a better life then this. I love it. Live by myself and I'll die by myself.

[' 'Roamer||Avi]

Accepted.